Friday, October 31, 2008

Reflections on Kansas City

1. I can no longer pass for a college student--even on a college campus.
2. I am not up on intellectual religious terminology.
3. I participate in discussions--even if I have committed to myself to keep my mouth shut.
4. I can make small talk with strangers easily.
5. There will be a commercial in Missouri involving Andy Richter and ten men in Santa suits--or so it seemed.
6. I am too concerned with others perception of me.
7. I love long, late night conversations.
8. My brother and I live about as different lives as possible, yet somehow share some of the same struggles and questions.
9. The way to overcome ignorance and bigotry is to teach our children differently.  Some of the enemies in the New Testament are individuals who are Jewish--not the faith and traditions as a whole.  I think this carries over into many areas.  Judgements made on entire groups of people based on the actions of some should not be passed onto our children.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I'm Heading to Kansas City

I will be out on an adventure in KC, MO for most of the week.  I am sure there will be stories to share when I return.


Thursday, October 23, 2008


Scarlet Begonias is the song.  It is a Grateful Dead song--but yes, Jimmy Buffett does have a version.  I love that song. 

I chose red begonias this year at Home Depot--I wanted to have Scarlet Begonias at my house! If you know me, you know that is something I would do.  It's the little things people.  Little things like that make me smile.  

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Name the song...

Well, I ain't always right but I've never been wrong.
Seldom turns out the way it does in a song.

Ok, give me your best guess!  I want to see some comments!  

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Seven Things

Ok, my friend Lainie passed this on to me...  I am supposed to tell you seven little known things about myself.  Which is hard, because I am an open book to most!

1.  I secretly want to be famous for something.  I want to be a known columnist, or win teacher of the year, something good though.  

2.  I love my job--seriously love it.  Yeah, there are challenges--but it is the perfect ideal job for me.

3.  I thought for while it would be cool to name children after the twelve tribes of Israel. Naphtali was my favorite.  Thankfully for my children, my love of that idea ended about the time I met their father.

4.  I always lay out my clothes the night before.  I can't remember a time in my life when I didn't do this.  If it is a new combination of clothes, I try them all on to make sure they go together.

5.  I have issues with meat.  Especially if it is on a bone.  I like my food to look nothing like the animal.  I always buy boneless meat--except for Thanksgiving.  I deal with the bones.  

6.  I love Taco Bell--crunchy beef tacos and bean burritos.  I don't like the "fancy" stuff, just the basics.

7.  One of my most special things is a bracelet my mom wore a lot when I was little. Mom gave it to me a few weeks before she died. I wear it at least once a week.  

If you have a blog and want to pass this on--post seven things about yourself.  

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Mom's Tradition

My mom was famous for her Party Mix.  My brother and I would come home from school one day in October to the glorious smell of Party Mix in the oven.  Mom would make huge batches and repackage it in the cereal boxes and freeze it for the holidays.  I have a many memories of my grandpa digging through a box on Thanksgiving Day looking for cashews.   

One year, Mom bought "christmas tree" pretzels.  Well, they were actually a scripted shaped "A" made for Anheuser-Bush's brand of pretzels.  This was rather taboo for my family.  Mom was so embarrassed.  

I am making a huge batch of it right now!  It is baking, no "christmas trees" or other special pretzels this year.

This photo is the last time we were all together.  My husband and children with my parents and brother.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Thought provoking

I read this in a friends blog! I loved it and stole it :) Thanks, Quincy.

I wrote the first thing I thought, I didn't want to edit myself too much--so beware :)

I am . . . Lynnea.
I think . . .too much about things beyond my control.
I want . . . a whole day with my family with no commitments.
I have . . . a lot of pewter ducks.
I miss . . . my mom.
I fear . . . being alone.
I feel . . . overwhelmed at times.
I hear . . . the aquarium humming.
I smell . . . candles.
I crave . . . recognition.
I cry . . . that my girls don't know my mom.
I search . . . for meaning in life.
I wonder . . . how the Earth spins, yet we seem to not notice it.
I regret . . . dating a boy my best friend liked.
I wish . . . I was more patient with my girls.
I love . . . Josh.
I care . . . about my students and their families.
I always . . . have an opinion.  Some of the time I share it.
I worry . . . too much.
I am not . . . a good singer.
I remember . . . growing up in Festus, MO.
I believe . . . there is a God.
I know . . . I don't have all the answers.
I sing . . . in the car--all the time.
I don't always . . . see black/white.
I argue . . . rarely, debate often!
I write . . . often in a journal.
I lose . . . my keys, only to realize they were never really lost.
I listen . . . to NPR every day.
I can . . . create masterpieces with construction paper.
I need . . . to feel loved.
I forget . . . to count the blessings!
I am happy . . . in a crowd.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

things are looking up

Well, I decided to think that way.  

I was given a jar of homemade jelly today.  

I couldn't walk today because of rain, so I went to Casa Blanca with some friends and had chips and cheese dip instead!

I made a batch of spiced pecans--just because I wanted too!  I didn't have to make something to take somewhere.  I just felt like doing it.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Too Much Stuff to Do

There seems to be so many "extra" things in life.  Everyday life is busy enough. I like the fun stuff, but lately it feels like the fun stuff brings me more work.  

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Perfect Family if...

Why do people assume that when you have two girls that wish you had a boy?  I heard it a lot when I was expecting #2.  Did I want a boy?  Not really, I was thrilled to learn we would have two girls.  I never had regrets about having two girls, I wasn't eager to try for a boy.  

I actually had someone tell me that I would have the perfect family if my youngest had been a boy.  I calmly answered, no then I wouldn't have Claire.  Is it hard to imagine that we are perfectly content with what we have been given?  

Sunday, October 12, 2008

My Daughters

My daughters, I can't imagine what what my life would be like without these two girls.  Being a parent can be hard--but I would do anything for these girls.

Claire Allison, my second daughter.  She knows what she wants and has little patience.  She reminds me of myself in a lot of ways. She is five now.  She is always creating things and loves to help.  She is often shy, but amazed the church when she was three belting out the song her choir sang one Sunday.

Delaney Elizabeth, she is seven. She has been calm since birth.  She has confidence in herself, much more than I ever have.  She asks questions and always has a story to tell.  She seems to know everyone in the school.  

Friday, October 10, 2008

Looking Back

When I was expecting Delaney, I feel in love with a specific nursery bedding set.  It was from  Lambs and Ivy.  I found it in the JC Penney's catalogue.  It was white with blue and white pillow ticking trim.  It has different satin hearts on it.  It was exactly what I wanted.  It was VERY expensive.  Seriously, crazy priced for nursery bedding.   Remember this:  it was only in the catalogue.

I had my mom get a catalogue and look at it.  She was good at recreating things.  She made me a dress for my sixteenth birthday that was exactly like one I showed her in TEEN magazine.  Back to the bedding. 

I walk in JC Penney's one day and see a clearance table.  There is my set. There is a valance, a crib skirt, and the crib set.  Marked down really cheap--someone had ordered it and returned it.  I called my mom from the store and almost cried.  Mom told me the fabric would be more expensive than what it was marked to buy it.  

My aunt and uncle bought the mobile and diaper stacker from the catalogue to complete the nursery.  I loved that nursery. 

I included the photo of my parents when Delaney was born.  I found it when I was looking for the nursery one. My mom learned that her cancer had returned early into my pregnancy.  I remember when she told me, I didn't know for certain she would make it to see the baby born.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Things I love about Fall

I love Fall.  I love being able to wear sweatshirts and sweaters.  I love walking through fallen leaves.  I love apple cider.  I love pumpkin seeds.  I love carving pumpkins.  I love cool Autumn evenings.  

I love Fall, it is my favorite season.

Super mom

Today each  girl had a friend over.  They each made a mini pizza.  They helped measure sugar and stir KoolAid.  I sliced three different varieties of apples for them to try.  

They played, I unloaded the dishwasher and did laundry.  

Today, I feel like Super Mom.  

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

a bit of crazy

I am getting back to normal.  I get crazy after extended visits with Josh's parents.  It makes me sad that my mom isn't here.  My girls don't have their Grandma, and I don't have a Mom.  I feel a bit slighted by this.  I wish I didn't get this way, but I do and this has happened before.  I actually cried today because I miss my mom.  I haven't done that in a long time, it has been well over three years ago that she died.  October has been hard in the past, everywhere I look or read there is mention of Breast Cancer Awareness.  My mom, for a reason I may never know, didn't become a surviver of Breast Cancer.  

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Home in AL

It has been odd since I left.  I learned that a childhood friend was killed in an accident.  We spent the afternoon with some old friends.  The next day, we happened to be at the same place at the same time as my husband's high school love.  Today started with an odd conversation and then tears on the car ride home.  

The trip was odd for me.  I am tired now.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Only 32

I am grateful to be 32, but I hope for a long life.  One of my childhood friends died this weekend in an accident. I have been searching online for more information.  So far, I can't find anything.  

old friends

We spent today with old friends.  Josh met them in high school--I met them soon after meeting Josh.  We got married the same summer.  We all lived in Rolla after we were married, and then the guys worked together in Huntsville for the next seven years.  They left us, and moved back to Arkansas.  I really felt that way, that they were leaving us.  I was more heart broken than they knew.  

Between the two families, our kids are 7, 6, 5, and 4.  The more kids came the harder it became to get together.  Life gets so busy.  I used to wonder if we had been better at making time if they would have stayed in Alabama.  

I'm In Arkansas

We arrived yesterday afternoon, we only had a few minutes of grumpiness in the car.  I would call that a success.  Josh and I ran out for some Mexico Chiquito.  I haven't quite gotten the recipe for the cheese dip right yet.  I am missing something.

Today's mission--razorbacks shirts for all of us.  The girls need something to wear on "Spirit Day" when most wear their Alabama or Auburn wears.